Hey momma

Thanks so much. Holy cow. I feel like you always know what to say to me. I have actually been better this week. Or so I think. It has helped that I have made it through my first change. There were some times I didn`t think I would make it. But here I am. I showed myself that I could. And thanks for your letter last week. That really really helped. And I actually went back through my notebooks and journals and read what I wrote. And of course, started crying but only because I want to have that confidence now. But thanks so much!! You are awesome and seriously know how to help me when I am struggling.

And actually my companion and I do get along. Not all the time but most of the time because she doesn`t like to follow all the rules and we don`t always have companionship study and everything all day. That has been hard on me. We struggled a lot because she thought I was really prideful and hated that I would cry. But now she just accepts it and we`re a lot better. She is patience with me most of the time. She does expect a lot out of me and maybe that`s why I am struggling. Because when I don`t know what is being said, I won`t say anything or I will look to here to give the answer. I think she thinks I understand a lot more than I do. I understand her a lot better and so I think she thinks I understand everyone. But I don`t. And yes, I am way too hard on myself. But I hate struggling like this. I didn`t think it would be this hard. But I guess I do need to sit back and let her drive. I just want to be able to do more but I just can`t right now.

This week was better. Not a lot happened. We had 2 baptisms on Saturday so that was pretty awesome. Hernan and Fernanda. It is pretty awesome to be able to say I was apart of their conversion. I helped them find the Lord. I don`t feel entirely like I know I should but I believe that will come soon. I was happy and excited. Don`t get me wrong but I don`t know. I don`t know how to describe it. I feel like Hna Chavez was the one that really helped them. But soon enough I will feel like I know I should. I will also send you pictures next week. I don`t have time this week. But yeah, the baptisms were awesome. I will write more next time. I just don`t have time. I am sorry!!!! But it was wierd becasue they didnt dress in church clothes. They just came in street clothes. That will be something that will be weird to get used to. But that`s okay. The Spirit was still there. And I have been trying to write a Spiritual experience every night and I think that is helping as well. Thanks for the advice.

Also, will you send me a copy of General Conference? I didn`t get to go on Saturday night and they will give me one but it will be in Spanish. And I want to read it in English. So if you could send me one somehow that would be awesome.

Also when Brother Orme comes down I realized I don`t need a lot. I just want some comfort food :) Haha I don`t know what but something. And I want good toothbrushes. We bought some cheap ones but they are horrible. I don`t know what else I need. I probably need a lot but I don`t know. Also, can you ask when he is coming down? I might send home some of my jewelry like my ring. I really don`t want to lose it while I am here. And I want to know it will be safe while I am gone. And maybe send down some church CDs with him if you can. They don`t have to be the Mormon Tab. They only need to be uplifting. I would greatly appreciate it.

Anyways, sorry for the past few letters. I am really trying. And I am sorry I don`t have a lot of time today. I will write more next week. I promise. . You are an awesome example and I am so thankful you could be my mom. And that I could be apart of this family. I am truly blessed and couldn`t ask for a better family. Tell everyone hi and that I love them. And tell everyone thanks for everything. I love and miss you! You are the best!!!!